Eli Gundry

Feelings

I maintain a diary of my feelings using Daylio which I publish to this site daily. I wrote a bit about it on my blog, if you are interested in how and why.

I felt good

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  • Felt much better today! Went to work without any (net new) worries and finished up a task that I was struggling with
  • Medication ad just ment has me a little loopy, but not in a bad way
  • Made the NYT Cooking chicken and rice for dinner. A little soupy because brown rice is tricky to cook, but very delicious

I felt meh

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  • Stayed off my phone all day to limit my stress. Restarted Tears of the Kingdom as I hadn’t touched it since 2023.
  • Met with my doctor and we are going to double one of my meds and hope that helps with the anxiety and then we can tackle the other things.
  • Cried in the shower. Completely paralyzed with anxiety. Took the day off from work and doubled one of my medications to see if it would help (it did).
  • Decided to shed all inputs, lie in bed and play Zelda while I await a doctor’s appointment later in the day.

I felt good

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  • Went shopping in the suburbs with my family!
  • Travel back to the city was mostly chill.

I felt good

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  • Hung out with my sister and nephew all day. He decided he’s gonna be a doctor when he crawled to the stethoscope
  • Made a citrusy bean salad for dinner, everyone liked it
  • Came from behind and beat everyone at Mario Party!

I felt good

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  • Day started awfully. Cried in the gym, major depressive episode, took the day off of work.
  • Day ended amazing. Visiting my sister and her baby, so cute. Finish a book on the train ride. OSU wins!

I felt awful

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  • Just going through a rough time. Angry for all the reasons and no reason at the same time
  • Made a delicious beans and leeks dish for dinner

I felt meh

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  • The gym kicked my ass this morning. Learned what “every minute on the minute” stands for 😑
  • Too many meetings of people talking past each other. I think I got to the bottom of what we need to do, just need to convince people, though I’m not certain it matters
  • Made really tasty impossible burgers

I felt meh

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  • Work was only a little bit stressful, so that’s a win
  • Woke up super groggy after watching my beloved Lions win. Missed my gym class 🙁

I felt good

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  • Worked a little bit today because things were on fire and I was the arsonist
  • Went to a concert at an artist’s loft, pretty fun
  • Finished Julia, a retelling of 1984, 5/5. Started Kingfish, the biography of Huey Long, enjoying how Louisiana it is

I felt bad

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  • Went for a 5 mile walk this morning. Low key cased an abandoned warehouse, just want to see what’s inside.
  • Work is stressing me out, I always get a little uptight when I have to deal with the money machines.
  • Watched Nightbitch, 5/5

I felt meh

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  • I’m putting in my best at work, meeting deadlines and being responsive and it’s met with… not what I expect. Gonna keep trudging on.
  • Watching CFB during the last hour of work is all the bowl season is about.
  • I’ve completely forgotten how to deadlift 🤦

I felt rad

🥩 📺 🧑‍🍳 🍜 📚 💆‍♂️ 🏃‍♂️ 🌞
  • New Years Day! Decided to come back to journaling daily.
  • OSU won!
  • Made a gochujang roast pork loin with homemade gochugarau sauerkraut Bisquick dumplings. It’s a fun riff on my family’s New Years meal.

I felt good

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  • I’m on a tear reading right now. Just finished 2 Caro books and am very close on two other non-fictions.
  • Cooked a nice dinner of chicken thighs au poivre with actual French peppercorns. Ugh so delicious.
  • I started going to a college football bar across the neighborhood to watch OSU games. Nice change of pace and the wings are nice.

I felt meh

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  • Haven’t journaled in like a year and felt like time to come back.
  • It’s bad, but at least there is some finality in knowing that it’s bad that makes me feel more focused.
  • Updates from the year are like “marriage is a thing you have to garden” and “it’s time for new things, as the old things that gave me life don’t anymore”
  • New job has been fun but it’s been hard when it’s in a valley to care. I feel more annoyed at work, but it’s because I personally. care more than the last few spots. I think it’s because I feel I need it to work out.
  • I think I’m going to replace my Twitter consumption with reading books.